remember I said some few rants about 2011?
I should take my words back. 2011 isn’t that bad after all. it taught me so much things about growing up & letting go. 11 days left before this year to end, and I’ve concluded everything.
ever heard about my friendzone issue? yup, the person who turned my life upside down. he changed the entire aspects of mysef, but everything went so much better aftermath.
we spent more time together fighting talking to each other than expected. no more tears. I’ve become less sensitive after all my attempts to move on.
and do you know what? moving on isn’t as difficult as I’ve thought before, lol. we talked a lot about this, I shared everything to him. pretty ironic, I know. but after all, we’ve made the best decision: focus on thy future, comrades. love life shouldn’t be our main priority. we’re still young, anyway.
so, I’ve got wisdom due to this matter. a few months ago, he was a douche and I’m a crybaby (perhaps still). but problems came, we complained about how we treat each other, so we are trying to change.
the feelings once I had towards him didn’t separate us, thank goodness. I need him. I don’t know if he needs me; maybe not, but I’m trying to hold his back as long as I can. because this frenemy bond is way more important than anything. like, finally; I know he’ll make a good companion in the future with me, so we’ll stay like the way we are. we might never show anything to anyone, but each other knows, we’ll be good together. everything might never gonna work as lovers; so we’ll let the time pass as best friends.
bet he understands this. aight, nyet? ;)
